Today as I felt the crunch of fallen leaves beneath my feet while walking along the wet sidewalk I began think back on certain incidents in my life. One in particular flashed through my mind and stuck with me for the whole entire day. It's one of those memories that makes me shudder every time that I think about it, but at the same time it's one of those memories that you can't just let slip through the cracks... It happened. Up until lately I've been able to push it aside and hide it away but now it's been brought back to the surface and it's painful to remember. But as much as you can blame other people, you can't blame them without feeling some of the blame.
But on a happier note, I'm attempting to cool down my anger by listening to Jack Johnson and wishing that I had a cup of tea and rain outside. God, I'm so nostalgic for my youth. Always. I remember when I used to race home from school in the snow just to have a cup of hot chocolate in grade 10 and then in grade 12 I would race home after school before work and make popcorn and a cup of tea (weird combo I know) and watch some TV just to relax before I started my 5pm shift every Friday. Sometimes I wish that I could just go back to those exact moments but I know that I can't dwell in the past, sometimes I miss my parents, like who knows when I'll be back home again..? My life is so undetermined. And my hair is still flat, I wish it looked like Lisa Lobsinger's hair... So many thoughts go through my head and I can't just let them slip through the cracks and why do people complain so much. We have a great life, there are so many other people out there who have nothing and we have so much. Why would you bother complaining about something so miniscule.. You have clean water, a bed, food, school, etc. So please think before you talk. Thanks. Sorry. My head hurts. I love Jack Johnson on days like this... please, take me away. My brain needs to calm down. Waiting on love ain't so easy to do...
Much love.
xx. julie
No comments:
Post a Comment