Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Hello there (in person),
Don't let others judge you.
much love.
xx. julie
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Hello keyboard katz,
Cold as granite.
Content as happy.
Those days when things don't go quite as planned but turn out exactly how they were imagined. I guess it's just luck. I like to think it is more than that though. I like to think more... I hope you all like to think more as well. Let's all just stop planning and start living. Stop making sense start making nonsense. Shake things up and live a little. Okay I am done now.
Enjoy.
xx. julie
Cold as granite.
Content as happy.
Those days when things don't go quite as planned but turn out exactly how they were imagined. I guess it's just luck. I like to think it is more than that though. I like to think more... I hope you all like to think more as well. Let's all just stop planning and start living. Stop making sense start making nonsense. Shake things up and live a little. Okay I am done now.
Enjoy.
xx. julie
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Hi friends.
For those lonely and cold Decembers.
I'll always be right here.
I'll always be a friend.
When you're down.
When you're upset.
When you're just looking for someone you haven't yet met.
I'll be here.
Right here.
Sometimes, if not all the time, I get quite nostalgic. I remember the fond memories from past years and how all of them helped to bring me here. It was nice to have left on a happy note rather than a sad one. I'm blessed that I had so many amazing people to have an influence my life. My friends were and are always supportive; looking out for me when times get rough, they never gave up no matter how dark of a place I was in. Thank you. My family was there for me in all of my endeavours. They raised me to be aware of my future and taught me how to always manage to get to where I want to be. Through all of the amazing people who have managed to touch my life in any way I have learned the most valuable lesson; what love really is. When I was younger I used to imagine love as an expression toward something that you had extreme fondness over or a relationship but it's really so much more than that... It's an emotion, a feeling, something like non-other out there. Love is having others care, support, work together, smile and so many other wonderful and indescribable things. Now, I truly do understand the quote; "Love makes the world go 'round." I love everything and everyone. I love you.
Take care this foggy evening and just know that someone out there is thinking of you, they or you just may not know it yet.
Enjoy.
xx. julie
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
I'm drunk, third night in a row with my parsnts... Good times! I just moved into a new house all by myself. It's the best thing ever. And I have so many things I want to share but I don't know if I should. Maybe I should start getting better at confrontation in person rather than the I interwebz. I reeeeeralllllllyyyy. Doioooo. Likkkkeeeee. Lots of things!!! Hehehehe, but some in particular ;-) I think n house is haunted even tho I know the light is in a timer... It just turned on on it's own! My mom is sleeping and my dad is doing stuff and I'm about to pass out but I wish things... Oh welllllll. Love life and you all. I say more if I was more drunk and didn't care as much. But I care a lot about stuff. Maybe not what others thing of me so why should it matter? Why do I always say love you all when I don't even know some of you. My heart is an open door! I love everyone but right now my head is spun I g. Spinning. I love this feeling! I'm planning g something really cool and special! Isn't that cool?! I'd post music if I wasn't on my iPhone writing this but I am! Night lovers and reads. I love you all!!!! :) :) :)
xx. julie
xx. julie
Friday, November 25, 2011
Evening found,
What if everything that we do in our life is just false. Can all of these things in our life really exist. I mean, happiness, love, compassion, mercy, hate, worry, alone, etc. They're emotions or feelings. But we determine the way we chose to express all of them. But what if we were wrong. What if it were all just in our imagination. Do we really exist. Are these things real. Are we real. I don't know. I don't know anything. Sometimes I feel like I know the world. Other times I feel like a little spec on a grain of sand. Emotionless, helpless, no sense of direction. I have no idea where I'm going in life, what I'm going to do, where I'm going to be. Sometimes I worry. What if. But at the same time I open my eyes to find what is and what could be. It's difficult when you can't see what's coming until it hits you smack right in between your two eyes. I want to be able to live without worry, without regrets, without anything. But I can't and I know I never will. Because sadly, that's part of life, but thankfully, that's part of the journey. Time to stop feeling so isolated and misunderstood. You're not the only one out there, everyone else is a little lost too. We all are. That's what brings us together; the hope that someone may find us or help us to find ourselves. Sleep tight tonight.
much love.
What if everything that we do in our life is just false. Can all of these things in our life really exist. I mean, happiness, love, compassion, mercy, hate, worry, alone, etc. They're emotions or feelings. But we determine the way we chose to express all of them. But what if we were wrong. What if it were all just in our imagination. Do we really exist. Are these things real. Are we real. I don't know. I don't know anything. Sometimes I feel like I know the world. Other times I feel like a little spec on a grain of sand. Emotionless, helpless, no sense of direction. I have no idea where I'm going in life, what I'm going to do, where I'm going to be. Sometimes I worry. What if. But at the same time I open my eyes to find what is and what could be. It's difficult when you can't see what's coming until it hits you smack right in between your two eyes. I want to be able to live without worry, without regrets, without anything. But I can't and I know I never will. Because sadly, that's part of life, but thankfully, that's part of the journey. Time to stop feeling so isolated and misunderstood. You're not the only one out there, everyone else is a little lost too. We all are. That's what brings us together; the hope that someone may find us or help us to find ourselves. Sleep tight tonight.
much love.
xx. julie
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Hi everyone,
Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to be you.
There's always something on your chest.
That you can't manage to put to rest.
Sometimes life feels like it is just a test.
But don't worry.
Sometimes the things that we try hardest to hide
Are exactly what we want to confide
Everything is done in time.
You can't fix something that is fine.
Life works in circles as you will see.
We all need some time to figure out exactly where we want to be.
_________________________________________________________________________________
It's a tough commitment to say that you'll change but sometimes you just have to take charge of the reigns, all negative thoughts aside and try to realize why you are keeping things the way they are. I used to complain but now I'm fine, it turns out that everything works out in time... It's best not to dwell on the past when you can take control of the future and steer it away from that big, bad past. But never forget, because those are the things in life that led you to be the person you are today; the desire to change was made upon past happenings. I hope that you can take with you what you may and try not to stay for too long. Please take care.
When I'm letting go and moving on I like to look back in song, hopefully you can listen along:
live on.
much love.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to be you.
There's always something on your chest.
That you can't manage to put to rest.
Sometimes life feels like it is just a test.
But don't worry.
Sometimes the things that we try hardest to hide
Are exactly what we want to confide
Everything is done in time.
You can't fix something that is fine.
Life works in circles as you will see.
We all need some time to figure out exactly where we want to be.
_________________________________________________________________________________
It's a tough commitment to say that you'll change but sometimes you just have to take charge of the reigns, all negative thoughts aside and try to realize why you are keeping things the way they are. I used to complain but now I'm fine, it turns out that everything works out in time... It's best not to dwell on the past when you can take control of the future and steer it away from that big, bad past. But never forget, because those are the things in life that led you to be the person you are today; the desire to change was made upon past happenings. I hope that you can take with you what you may and try not to stay for too long. Please take care.
When I'm letting go and moving on I like to look back in song, hopefully you can listen along:
much love.
xx. julie
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Hello.
Today as I felt the crunch of fallen leaves beneath my feet while walking along the wet sidewalk I began think back on certain incidents in my life. One in particular flashed through my mind and stuck with me for the whole entire day. It's one of those memories that makes me shudder every time that I think about it, but at the same time it's one of those memories that you can't just let slip through the cracks... It happened. Up until lately I've been able to push it aside and hide it away but now it's been brought back to the surface and it's painful to remember. But as much as you can blame other people, you can't blame them without feeling some of the blame.
But on a happier note, I'm attempting to cool down my anger by listening to Jack Johnson and wishing that I had a cup of tea and rain outside. God, I'm so nostalgic for my youth. Always. I remember when I used to race home from school in the snow just to have a cup of hot chocolate in grade 10 and then in grade 12 I would race home after school before work and make popcorn and a cup of tea (weird combo I know) and watch some TV just to relax before I started my 5pm shift every Friday. Sometimes I wish that I could just go back to those exact moments but I know that I can't dwell in the past, sometimes I miss my parents, like who knows when I'll be back home again..? My life is so undetermined. And my hair is still flat, I wish it looked like Lisa Lobsinger's hair... So many thoughts go through my head and I can't just let them slip through the cracks and why do people complain so much. We have a great life, there are so many other people out there who have nothing and we have so much. Why would you bother complaining about something so miniscule.. You have clean water, a bed, food, school, etc. So please think before you talk. Thanks. Sorry. My head hurts. I love Jack Johnson on days like this... please, take me away. My brain needs to calm down. Waiting on love ain't so easy to do...
Enjoy the night. Don't stress yourself out. Everything will be OK.
Much love.
Today as I felt the crunch of fallen leaves beneath my feet while walking along the wet sidewalk I began think back on certain incidents in my life. One in particular flashed through my mind and stuck with me for the whole entire day. It's one of those memories that makes me shudder every time that I think about it, but at the same time it's one of those memories that you can't just let slip through the cracks... It happened. Up until lately I've been able to push it aside and hide it away but now it's been brought back to the surface and it's painful to remember. But as much as you can blame other people, you can't blame them without feeling some of the blame.
But on a happier note, I'm attempting to cool down my anger by listening to Jack Johnson and wishing that I had a cup of tea and rain outside. God, I'm so nostalgic for my youth. Always. I remember when I used to race home from school in the snow just to have a cup of hot chocolate in grade 10 and then in grade 12 I would race home after school before work and make popcorn and a cup of tea (weird combo I know) and watch some TV just to relax before I started my 5pm shift every Friday. Sometimes I wish that I could just go back to those exact moments but I know that I can't dwell in the past, sometimes I miss my parents, like who knows when I'll be back home again..? My life is so undetermined. And my hair is still flat, I wish it looked like Lisa Lobsinger's hair... So many thoughts go through my head and I can't just let them slip through the cracks and why do people complain so much. We have a great life, there are so many other people out there who have nothing and we have so much. Why would you bother complaining about something so miniscule.. You have clean water, a bed, food, school, etc. So please think before you talk. Thanks. Sorry. My head hurts. I love Jack Johnson on days like this... please, take me away. My brain needs to calm down. Waiting on love ain't so easy to do...
Much love.
xx. julie
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Hello friends,
On a more serious note... I haven't written anything in a while, but even when I'm not on here I'm still here, just on paper instead of this cyber-space. My journal is tathered and torn but it encloses my deepest thoughts other than those locked away in my own mind. Some of my thoughts are simple, profound, complicated, happy, sad, loving, hating (haha) and many more. (Sorry, the hating one just made me think of something written in my journal, never to be seen by anyone but me:) ) Anyways, needless to say these past few weeks have been rather dry in cyber-space but there has been a torrential downpour in my journal... And so now is the time for a fusion! Cyber-meets-journal. Could it be the start of something new? Love is in the air. Relationship? I think they may just fall in love, but only this time. They're more just fuck buddies I guess would be the proper term? Idk.. Urban Dictionary it! I tend to need to do that often.
Here it goes: In chronological order of the past two weeks...
1.
"sometimes
I wish that I were the sun.
It's always making peoples days.
It's bright.
It shines.
It is beautiful.
It is so many wonderful things."
2.
"I have no money.
But I can still manage the unknown."
3.
"Vancouver,
It's weird because I never imagined I would feel this. Kelowna is no longer my home. You are in my heart. And I don't even think that you realize how much you mean to me. I could very well be falling for you. Which is the most incredible feeling of life. Love, love, love <3
Let's just hope it won't fade too quick. Meow" Is it even possible to fall in love with a city? Because each and every day that I step out my front door I see an endless supply of opportunities in this city and it makes me feel love. Love is everywhere.
4.
"If I only had one week to live:
-life has no limitations
-I would love
-I would feel
-I would be an open book
-I wouldn't be sad.
-All things gold must come to an end
-I would be right here and now
-Nothing can hold me back
-Travel
-Love
-Hope
-Do not wallow in self pity
*Most important
Live your life to the fullest.
:)"
5.
This one is rather personal. I am not posting it. It's more of a musical ode. I'll post it in song and the rest can be decided by you.
....Opening my eyes...
If anyone is smart enough they could learn a bit about me. But that's for me to keep secret and others to guess.
_________________________________________
On another note, I've been thinking that drunken words really are sober thoughts and as horrible as it sounds sometimes I feel as if I should be drunk so that I would say more of the things that are on my mind, and there's one thing that's really getting to me but I have the worst wording of life. But when I am drunk everything comes out in verbal vomit that only half makes sense. So my problem is two-sided. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and it's really uncomfortable, but who am I to complain? I guess you can't have your cake and eat it too... But I'm the simple type. Things don't eat at me too bad, all I have to do is put in my headphones, lay down and zone out from the world and then I'm perfectly at home. Sometimes uncertainty is the most certain you can be. But I would rather be uncertain than be certain that it's not. Or be certain that I'm certain that it's certain to be certain when I'm changing subjects to make people forget what I'm saying cause I'm praying that I'm making sense when we stop making sense of the situation talking heads had a song like that and I'm like yeah I put my hand up blow my whistle lalalalalala! Hi. Meow. K. Sorry, ADD moment happened to me. Julie is back.
This one is for my old math teacher who sat beside me in Kelowna and sang along to every word straight from the heart. Because someday we may be gone but we'll still be here and everyone should be remembered for what they were.
And now the stars are shining, the night is bright and it's time for me to close my eyes and dream of all the things that go though my mind.
Take care and be yourself, don't over-think. You're exactly where you need to be. Much love.
On a more serious note... I haven't written anything in a while, but even when I'm not on here I'm still here, just on paper instead of this cyber-space. My journal is tathered and torn but it encloses my deepest thoughts other than those locked away in my own mind. Some of my thoughts are simple, profound, complicated, happy, sad, loving, hating (haha) and many more. (Sorry, the hating one just made me think of something written in my journal, never to be seen by anyone but me:) ) Anyways, needless to say these past few weeks have been rather dry in cyber-space but there has been a torrential downpour in my journal... And so now is the time for a fusion! Cyber-meets-journal. Could it be the start of something new? Love is in the air. Relationship? I think they may just fall in love, but only this time. They're more just fuck buddies I guess would be the proper term? Idk.. Urban Dictionary it! I tend to need to do that often.
Here it goes: In chronological order of the past two weeks...
1.
"sometimes
I wish that I were the sun.
It's always making peoples days.
It's bright.
It shines.
It is beautiful.
It is so many wonderful things."
2.
"I have no money.
But I can still manage the unknown."
3.
"Vancouver,
It's weird because I never imagined I would feel this. Kelowna is no longer my home. You are in my heart. And I don't even think that you realize how much you mean to me. I could very well be falling for you. Which is the most incredible feeling of life. Love, love, love <3
Let's just hope it won't fade too quick. Meow" Is it even possible to fall in love with a city? Because each and every day that I step out my front door I see an endless supply of opportunities in this city and it makes me feel love. Love is everywhere.
4.
"If I only had one week to live:
-life has no limitations
-I would love
-I would feel
-I would be an open book
-I wouldn't be sad.
-All things gold must come to an end
-I would be right here and now
-Nothing can hold me back
-Travel
-Love
-Hope
-Do not wallow in self pity
*Most important
Live your life to the fullest.
:)"
5.
This one is rather personal. I am not posting it. It's more of a musical ode. I'll post it in song and the rest can be decided by you.
_________________________________________
On another note, I've been thinking that drunken words really are sober thoughts and as horrible as it sounds sometimes I feel as if I should be drunk so that I would say more of the things that are on my mind, and there's one thing that's really getting to me but I have the worst wording of life. But when I am drunk everything comes out in verbal vomit that only half makes sense. So my problem is two-sided. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and it's really uncomfortable, but who am I to complain? I guess you can't have your cake and eat it too... But I'm the simple type. Things don't eat at me too bad, all I have to do is put in my headphones, lay down and zone out from the world and then I'm perfectly at home. Sometimes uncertainty is the most certain you can be. But I would rather be uncertain than be certain that it's not. Or be certain that I'm certain that it's certain to be certain when I'm changing subjects to make people forget what I'm saying cause I'm praying that I'm making sense when we stop making sense of the situation talking heads had a song like that and I'm like yeah I put my hand up blow my whistle lalalalalala! Hi. Meow. K. Sorry, ADD moment happened to me. Julie is back.
This one is for my old math teacher who sat beside me in Kelowna and sang along to every word straight from the heart. Because someday we may be gone but we'll still be here and everyone should be remembered for what they were.
Take care and be yourself, don't over-think. You're exactly where you need to be. Much love.
xx. julie
Aloe vera-one,
Nicole says my opening line is a bit of a stretch... I agree, but I'm drinking aloe vera juice, yum! I went to T&T market today and who the fuck gives a fuck that I bought tofu today, wow. K. Gaaaaaahhhh,,,
I LOVE MUSIC!
BUT MORE AT THE MOMENT...
I LOVE Lisa Lobsinger's hair!!!
Have you see it?!
OMGGGGGGG...
Yeah.
New idol.
(^took that 10/10/10)
I wish my hair looked like that...
I'm going to make a point on Monday to saturate my hair in hairspray and have it look like that, too excited! And if the rumors are true then she is 43 years old. I don't believe AOL though.. She has to be waaaaaay younger than that... I mean, look at her! So anyways, I kind of have no life so I spent all evening searching her on google and I found her other band Reverie Sound Revue, love! And they're Calgarian :) I remember the first time I saw her in person... Outside of Broken Social Scene's tour bus on October 10th 2010. She emerged from the bus with her hair perfectly messy and poofed to the extremes. Once her feet stepped onto the black asphalt she lit a cigarette and began practicing her vocals, I stood there in awe, trying not to look like a stalker who showed up to the concert 4 hours in advance in hopes of meeting the band (I have a deep love for Kevin Drew). Now was my chance. The most genuine people you will ever meet, they all hold a special space in my heart. God, there's so many things in my life. Broken Social Scene is probably the soundtrack of my life. For yesterday, today, tomorrow and every other day to come... until the day I die. But they are more; they are a family, they branch out; they are not just Broken Social Scene. They are KC Accidental, Feist, Metric, Stars, Apostle of Hustle, The Happiness Project, Reverie Sound Revue, Eight And A Half, Kevin Drew, Brendan Canning, etc... Everyday my song changes, every moment, each step, each breath, all my thoughts, all my dreams, everything. I love life! I could talk about this band for hours and hours but I won't bore anyone with my useless knowledge... Instead enjoy some music while I ponder what is going on in my social life and stuff like that.. :) I'll probs write more stuff in like an hour cause I'm bored. Here's all my BSS love:
There's so much beauty out there... Love love love.
Keep it alive.
Nicole says my opening line is a bit of a stretch... I agree, but I'm drinking aloe vera juice, yum! I went to T&T market today and who the fuck gives a fuck that I bought tofu today, wow. K. Gaaaaaahhhh,,,
I LOVE MUSIC!
BUT MORE AT THE MOMENT...
I LOVE Lisa Lobsinger's hair!!!
Have you see it?!
OMGGGGGGG...
Yeah.
New idol.
I wish my hair looked like that...
I'm going to make a point on Monday to saturate my hair in hairspray and have it look like that, too excited! And if the rumors are true then she is 43 years old. I don't believe AOL though.. She has to be waaaaaay younger than that... I mean, look at her! So anyways, I kind of have no life so I spent all evening searching her on google and I found her other band Reverie Sound Revue, love! And they're Calgarian :) I remember the first time I saw her in person... Outside of Broken Social Scene's tour bus on October 10th 2010. She emerged from the bus with her hair perfectly messy and poofed to the extremes. Once her feet stepped onto the black asphalt she lit a cigarette and began practicing her vocals, I stood there in awe, trying not to look like a stalker who showed up to the concert 4 hours in advance in hopes of meeting the band (I have a deep love for Kevin Drew). Now was my chance. The most genuine people you will ever meet, they all hold a special space in my heart. God, there's so many things in my life. Broken Social Scene is probably the soundtrack of my life. For yesterday, today, tomorrow and every other day to come... until the day I die. But they are more; they are a family, they branch out; they are not just Broken Social Scene. They are KC Accidental, Feist, Metric, Stars, Apostle of Hustle, The Happiness Project, Reverie Sound Revue, Eight And A Half, Kevin Drew, Brendan Canning, etc... Everyday my song changes, every moment, each step, each breath, all my thoughts, all my dreams, everything. I love life! I could talk about this band for hours and hours but I won't bore anyone with my useless knowledge... Instead enjoy some music while I ponder what is going on in my social life and stuff like that.. :) I'll probs write more stuff in like an hour cause I'm bored. Here's all my BSS love:
Keep it alive.
xx. julie
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Good morning,
From the first moment to the last, all the way through the middle and back over all again. Time is of the essence. I like to take it as it comes but sometimes it can feel like it's moving too fast or too slow. Those are the times when I appreciate it the most; I want to grab it, hold it, grasp it and never take it for granted because I never know when my time may end. Lately I've been feeling very grateful for all the happenings in my life, I never let them go unnoticed, good or bad. So here is your time to appreciate the world for what it's worth and do not take anything for granted, especially when it comes to time; don't let it pass you by.
Now let this music lead you to a better place...
much love.
From the first moment to the last, all the way through the middle and back over all again. Time is of the essence. I like to take it as it comes but sometimes it can feel like it's moving too fast or too slow. Those are the times when I appreciate it the most; I want to grab it, hold it, grasp it and never take it for granted because I never know when my time may end. Lately I've been feeling very grateful for all the happenings in my life, I never let them go unnoticed, good or bad. So here is your time to appreciate the world for what it's worth and do not take anything for granted, especially when it comes to time; don't let it pass you by.
Now let this music lead you to a better place...
much love.
xx. julie
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
Hello friends,
Happiest of Hallow's Eve! :) My mom is currently on the phone to me while she's handing out candy... she's hilarious! She's taking a head count... I get an update every time new kids come to the door! I can hear kids in the background saying "trick or treat."
"Holy shit I think there's some more kids coming!" My mom says "There are some really big kids... Old, fat and everything."
I think that she has A.D.D. but I also think that I have it too... Cool.
I'm so tired. I had a three hour nap today.
Enjoy your sleeps!
nighty night. fall back into a sea of pillows. :)
Happiest of Hallow's Eve! :) My mom is currently on the phone to me while she's handing out candy... she's hilarious! She's taking a head count... I get an update every time new kids come to the door! I can hear kids in the background saying "trick or treat."
"Holy shit I think there's some more kids coming!" My mom says "There are some really big kids... Old, fat and everything."
I think that she has A.D.D. but I also think that I have it too... Cool.
I'm so tired. I had a three hour nap today.
Enjoy your sleeps!
xx. julie
Friday, October 28, 2011
Hello dear friends of the interwebz,
Most exciting of news today! I finally got a second job so I can begin repaying my parents for rent!! Overly excited rite meow! :-D
Now, I just need one more thing in life, yay!
I also gashed my knee open on the escalator today... To the bone. Ek. I'm living off of painkillers... :-(
Anyways, my best friend is coming here tomorrow morning at 8am! And I'm extremely excited beyond belief!! :-D
Yay for smiles.
night!
Most exciting of news today! I finally got a second job so I can begin repaying my parents for rent!! Overly excited rite meow! :-D
Now, I just need one more thing in life, yay!
I also gashed my knee open on the escalator today... To the bone. Ek. I'm living off of painkillers... :-(
Anyways, my best friend is coming here tomorrow morning at 8am! And I'm extremely excited beyond belief!! :-D
Yay for smiles.
night!
xx. julie
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Hi readers,
So I have officially decided that I am the world's biggest procrastinator... Some people may try to argue that they are but they are all wrong, for it is I, Julie Kaufman, who is the world's biggest procrastinator. See, most procrastinators stop procrastinating when they finally need to do something critical. But I never stop. I keep procrastinating even when I have a huge life-changing situation to deal with. This is the worst thing ever... And guilt slowly trickles in. Worst... So here's a little tip: Don't be like me; don't procrastinate to the extremes!!! A little procrastination never hurt anyone but anything past a little is killer. Trust me.
Enjoy the moon.
So I have officially decided that I am the world's biggest procrastinator... Some people may try to argue that they are but they are all wrong, for it is I, Julie Kaufman, who is the world's biggest procrastinator. See, most procrastinators stop procrastinating when they finally need to do something critical. But I never stop. I keep procrastinating even when I have a huge life-changing situation to deal with. This is the worst thing ever... And guilt slowly trickles in. Worst... So here's a little tip: Don't be like me; don't procrastinate to the extremes!!! A little procrastination never hurt anyone but anything past a little is killer. Trust me.
Enjoy the moon.
xx. julie
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
High up there,
Lately my posts have been so optimistic and just about my life. I'm sorry. I do write in a journal but I still like to share my mind on here as well, my apologies. Sometimes I wonder how life works... I like to believe in karma; giving back and getting back. Yesterday I tried to help a man out by giving him a toonie and then two minutes later my phone rang and it was a job that I applied for and they asked me to come back for the next stage of interviews... Karma? I don't know, but it's got to mean something right? :)
There are so many other great things going on in my life right now, it seems. I'm just overly happy at the moment! Nothing but smiles. I love fall, I love falling. haha. Ugh. I'm so punny. Nawt. I need to stop contradicting myself haha...
Enjoy some upbeat tunes for the sunshine peering through my window today!
and then listen to Caught A Long Wind by Feist
Enjoy the sunshine today.
Lately my posts have been so optimistic and just about my life. I'm sorry. I do write in a journal but I still like to share my mind on here as well, my apologies. Sometimes I wonder how life works... I like to believe in karma; giving back and getting back. Yesterday I tried to help a man out by giving him a toonie and then two minutes later my phone rang and it was a job that I applied for and they asked me to come back for the next stage of interviews... Karma? I don't know, but it's got to mean something right? :)
There are so many other great things going on in my life right now, it seems. I'm just overly happy at the moment! Nothing but smiles. I love fall, I love falling. haha. Ugh. I'm so punny. Nawt. I need to stop contradicting myself haha...
Enjoy some upbeat tunes for the sunshine peering through my window today!
Enjoy the sunshine today.
xx. julie
Monday, October 24, 2011
Hello dear friends,
So now I'm completely convinced that everything good in life is occurring to myself lately... :)
That's all!
http://www.flemisheye.com/chad-vangaalen-cassettes
So now I'm completely convinced that everything good in life is occurring to myself lately... :)
That's all!
http://www.flemisheye.com/chad-vangaalen-cassettes
xx. julie
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Hi there future, past and present lovers,
My name is Julie and I think that sometimes you can have a completely silent conversation with certain people without it feeling awkward at all. Just sitting... Thinking... Enjoying one-anothers company without saying a word; it's really just their presence that makes the moment perfect. Maybe I'm just blinded but I truly believe this.
Also, I need to end my love-hate-relationship with wine. Is it true that many of the 'greats' were either borderline insane, alcoholics, addicted to drugs or a combination? Right about now I feel like that's me. Well no. But you know what I mean? I'm just here and what am I here for..? I must have some type of prophecy to fulfill. Or am I just here? Do I even exist? Do you even exist? What if we're all just a figment of someone else's imagination. Just an illusion, a dream, not real. I don't know. Sometimes I get these absurd thoughts and I just feel the need to make them heard. Sometimes I wish I were like Leonardo Da Vinci. I need some sort of sign. Something to point me in the right direction... Does predetermination even exist? Or do we actually determine our own path. Are fait and destiny real or is that just a whole Shakespeare lie? I feel like I sound crazy but I don't know. It all makes sense in my mind and that's all that matters to me. I guess right now I'm the creator of my own "life"...
Wish me luck. And luck to you. I know you'll make it through if you just close your eyes and enjoy the ride!
My name is Julie and I think that sometimes you can have a completely silent conversation with certain people without it feeling awkward at all. Just sitting... Thinking... Enjoying one-anothers company without saying a word; it's really just their presence that makes the moment perfect. Maybe I'm just blinded but I truly believe this.
Also, I need to end my love-hate-relationship with wine. Is it true that many of the 'greats' were either borderline insane, alcoholics, addicted to drugs or a combination? Right about now I feel like that's me. Well no. But you know what I mean? I'm just here and what am I here for..? I must have some type of prophecy to fulfill. Or am I just here? Do I even exist? Do you even exist? What if we're all just a figment of someone else's imagination. Just an illusion, a dream, not real. I don't know. Sometimes I get these absurd thoughts and I just feel the need to make them heard. Sometimes I wish I were like Leonardo Da Vinci. I need some sort of sign. Something to point me in the right direction... Does predetermination even exist? Or do we actually determine our own path. Are fait and destiny real or is that just a whole Shakespeare lie? I feel like I sound crazy but I don't know. It all makes sense in my mind and that's all that matters to me. I guess right now I'm the creator of my own "life"...
Wish me luck. And luck to you. I know you'll make it through if you just close your eyes and enjoy the ride!
xx. julie
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Dear ghost of time,
Life is a schedule. Every morning I wake up at 8am, take my medications, clean up, come back to my room, make tea, go on my computer, listen to music, dream about the day, go out, maybe work, explore, come home, make dinner, eat, go on my computer, do something, get tired, go to sleep. But every morning isn't every morning... Some days I work, somedays I explore, somedays I run errands and somedays I want more. But to the days that I don't plan; they turn out to be the best because those are the days that are never put to the test. Those days that I wake up, not knowing what to do. I wake and I exit the door with no idea of what I'm going to explore. So here's for today and tomorrow. There's for yesterday and all the drunken sorrow. I'm off into the world without a care in my mind. And today with no intention good times I hope to find. Live your life freely and don't forget to write. Live your life to the fullest and happiness you will find!
Box-Type Love- Run Dan Run
never let the past drag you down.
Life is a schedule. Every morning I wake up at 8am, take my medications, clean up, come back to my room, make tea, go on my computer, listen to music, dream about the day, go out, maybe work, explore, come home, make dinner, eat, go on my computer, do something, get tired, go to sleep. But every morning isn't every morning... Some days I work, somedays I explore, somedays I run errands and somedays I want more. But to the days that I don't plan; they turn out to be the best because those are the days that are never put to the test. Those days that I wake up, not knowing what to do. I wake and I exit the door with no idea of what I'm going to explore. So here's for today and tomorrow. There's for yesterday and all the drunken sorrow. I'm off into the world without a care in my mind. And today with no intention good times I hope to find. Live your life freely and don't forget to write. Live your life to the fullest and happiness you will find!
Box-Type Love- Run Dan Run
never let the past drag you down.
xx. julie
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Are you there God? It's me, Julie...
Eff that. Hi there people. If anyone's out there?
The people upstairs are prancing around like there's an earthquake... Maybe, shut the f*ck up? Sorry. I'm slightly angry at how annoying they can get...
But really, I am all rainbows, puppies and cupcakes! It was a beautiful day :-)
Sorry, I just fell back into oblivion. But really, I always daydream. So, it's weird. Life likes to just throw all these little things your way and it's like whoa, okay, wow, yes, thank you, I love life. Yes, I feel that way. Oh my gosh. I'm so daft sometimes... I don't even know what I'm saying... Is this a normal thing? Why am I acting so strange?!
I remember when I was a little kid and my parents would take me to the toy store and say "Okay, you can pick out one toy."And I would sit in the aisles for hours looking at all the different possibilities. There were so many choices, how was I supposed to pick out just one! But as I got older I knew exactly what I wanted. I began to get more wise. I would look at the flyers and catalogs and circle specific toys that I dreamt of owning some day and when my parents would bring me back to that toy store I would march right over to a specific toy, pick it up and march back over to my parents with such a satisfied smile. But sometimes, those toys weren't exactly what they were made out to be... The pictures made them seem so much better than they really were. In the midst of my planning I was tricked. And it gave me an utter feeling of betrayal... Yes, at a young age I still managed to learn this. I guess what I'm trying to say is that sometimes we think we've found the sure thing and then we realize how far it is from what we really wanted. The best choices we make are the ones where we put the time and effort into finding, I loved those toys the most. Love. Love. Love.
Sweet dreams to all.
Eff that. Hi there people. If anyone's out there?
The people upstairs are prancing around like there's an earthquake... Maybe, shut the f*ck up? Sorry. I'm slightly angry at how annoying they can get...
But really, I am all rainbows, puppies and cupcakes! It was a beautiful day :-)
Sorry, I just fell back into oblivion. But really, I always daydream. So, it's weird. Life likes to just throw all these little things your way and it's like whoa, okay, wow, yes, thank you, I love life. Yes, I feel that way. Oh my gosh. I'm so daft sometimes... I don't even know what I'm saying... Is this a normal thing? Why am I acting so strange?!
I remember when I was a little kid and my parents would take me to the toy store and say "Okay, you can pick out one toy."And I would sit in the aisles for hours looking at all the different possibilities. There were so many choices, how was I supposed to pick out just one! But as I got older I knew exactly what I wanted. I began to get more wise. I would look at the flyers and catalogs and circle specific toys that I dreamt of owning some day and when my parents would bring me back to that toy store I would march right over to a specific toy, pick it up and march back over to my parents with such a satisfied smile. But sometimes, those toys weren't exactly what they were made out to be... The pictures made them seem so much better than they really were. In the midst of my planning I was tricked. And it gave me an utter feeling of betrayal... Yes, at a young age I still managed to learn this. I guess what I'm trying to say is that sometimes we think we've found the sure thing and then we realize how far it is from what we really wanted. The best choices we make are the ones where we put the time and effort into finding, I loved those toys the most. Love. Love. Love.
Sweet dreams to all.
xx. julie
Bonjour amis,
Sometimes I feel like this is just a blank canvas and it's sitting in a room where no one ever dares to enter; it's forgotten and forbidden. No one ever reads my blog. So what's the point of writing it? Well, it's a cleansing feeling to get everything off of my chest and not have to worry about judgement. Even if people do judge, me who am I to know? If you can't fuck it then fuck 'em. Sometimes it's nice to be in solitary just like that little canvas in that forgotten and forbidden room.
So life is up, up, up!
I don't know, I'm just extremely optimistic about everything that's occurring in my life at the moment... I know that I've said this the past few times, but really! I can feel the change. :) Sometimes it's so surreal. But then again, that's life! Gosh, so many great things... I can't even begin. I just made a feather hair-piece that I am very excited about too!
Like my tattoo... Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication. And I'll say it everyday. As the birds fly through the skies moving forward in life as the seasons change and they fly south and back again. I've never been good with change but I hate it when it all stays the same and those birds bring me hope and reassurance that everything will pan out how it was meant to be.
Much love to you all, where ever you may be.
Always remember,
You are here -> <3 (my heart)
Sometimes I feel like this is just a blank canvas and it's sitting in a room where no one ever dares to enter; it's forgotten and forbidden. No one ever reads my blog. So what's the point of writing it? Well, it's a cleansing feeling to get everything off of my chest and not have to worry about judgement. Even if people do judge, me who am I to know? If you can't fuck it then fuck 'em. Sometimes it's nice to be in solitary just like that little canvas in that forgotten and forbidden room.
So life is up, up, up!
I don't know, I'm just extremely optimistic about everything that's occurring in my life at the moment... I know that I've said this the past few times, but really! I can feel the change. :) Sometimes it's so surreal. But then again, that's life! Gosh, so many great things... I can't even begin. I just made a feather hair-piece that I am very excited about too!
Like my tattoo... Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication. And I'll say it everyday. As the birds fly through the skies moving forward in life as the seasons change and they fly south and back again. I've never been good with change but I hate it when it all stays the same and those birds bring me hope and reassurance that everything will pan out how it was meant to be.
Much love to you all, where ever you may be.
Always remember,
You are here -> <3 (my heart)
xx. julie
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Hey there faithful readers?
Sorry, I guess we all lose each other somewhere along the way, right? I've lost a lot of things lately; sanity, love, health, friends, among a million other things. The neat thing about this though is that it's a fresh start; you may have lost a lot but now look at what you have to gain! And that makes all the difference in the world. Life is finally starting to look up... Despite what they say I just keep my head up high and walk away toward a new future. My eyes are open and I'm letting it all in!
never overlook a second chance.
Sorry, I guess we all lose each other somewhere along the way, right? I've lost a lot of things lately; sanity, love, health, friends, among a million other things. The neat thing about this though is that it's a fresh start; you may have lost a lot but now look at what you have to gain! And that makes all the difference in the world. Life is finally starting to look up... Despite what they say I just keep my head up high and walk away toward a new future. My eyes are open and I'm letting it all in!
never overlook a second chance.
xx. julie
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Hello people whom I've lost touch with,
So we've moved on... We're starting to find our own separate ways. The little we talk in between here and there is almost nothing if you compare. To the days of the old, we'd see each other often. Everyday to be exact, at the same place and the same time. We'd laugh and we'd laugh. For we were young and we didn't know the time that we held. Now we're old, our eyes are glazed over and every moment in the past will only last as a memory. We still have our pictures that we took and our words that we wrote but everything else is a secret in a vault. Left for us to overlook.
I don't really talk to anyone that I graduated with... There may be 3 or 4 that occasionally comment on a Facebook post or tag me in an old photo. But it's never anything major. It never excites me when they send an e-mail my way. I left the past in the past and wished for it to stay. Drama is always an issue that I prefer to ignore so quite obviously I shut my door. On the people who aggravated me with all of the gossip that had nothing to do with me. It's okay now though. I've left it behind. I've moved on and cleared my mind!
and this is what I'm like...
Run free!
So we've moved on... We're starting to find our own separate ways. The little we talk in between here and there is almost nothing if you compare. To the days of the old, we'd see each other often. Everyday to be exact, at the same place and the same time. We'd laugh and we'd laugh. For we were young and we didn't know the time that we held. Now we're old, our eyes are glazed over and every moment in the past will only last as a memory. We still have our pictures that we took and our words that we wrote but everything else is a secret in a vault. Left for us to overlook.
I don't really talk to anyone that I graduated with... There may be 3 or 4 that occasionally comment on a Facebook post or tag me in an old photo. But it's never anything major. It never excites me when they send an e-mail my way. I left the past in the past and wished for it to stay. Drama is always an issue that I prefer to ignore so quite obviously I shut my door. On the people who aggravated me with all of the gossip that had nothing to do with me. It's okay now though. I've left it behind. I've moved on and cleared my mind!
xx. julie
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Hey all,
So maybe everything is going to be okay... It's all starting to fall into place; life is finally working itself all out. People are finally noticing me, I'm making friends, getting new jobs, going to concerts, having fun and everything else sun-shiney! I guess you could say that I'm extremely optimistic at this very moment in time. Enjoy some happy music on me! :-)
LOL!!!! Sorry, I had to!!!
okay. I can't do this right now... I'm too excited, sorry!
Enjoy your evening, unless if you're in another time zone and it's already day, in that case... Enjoy your day!
So maybe everything is going to be okay... It's all starting to fall into place; life is finally working itself all out. People are finally noticing me, I'm making friends, getting new jobs, going to concerts, having fun and everything else sun-shiney! I guess you could say that I'm extremely optimistic at this very moment in time. Enjoy some happy music on me! :-)
xx. julie
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
You've got to lose love if you want to find love
Hi past-lovers,
A long time ago we used to be friends.
We used to be more. Now we're just friends. But sometimes we're not. No one really knows what we are. We fight. We love. We hate. We argue. We get along. We don't. We try our hardest to make amends. But really, we can't be friends. Because that just blurs what it really means when it ends.
So we don't love. We forget how to feel. We never really know what is real. We know it's tough. But it's the deal.
We get over it. We start again. We find someone new to start a new end. We hope and we pray that this person will stay. Too the bitter end. We may lose another friend.
Here's my break-up playlist...
I haven't been there in a while but I know how heart-ache feels when you think you've found the "one" only to see that they aren't who you thought them to be. Or maybe you're young, just trying to have some fun. Only to get hurt when you finally realize you're being treated like dirt. Or perhaps you have a crush; which is a suitable name. Loving is the feeling and rejection is the pain. Let's all take a second and forget our harsh words; the "fuck you"'s and the "classless filth"'s that we've ever heard. Maybe you're the rejector or maybe the rejected. Either way, we all come together and help one another. We can sympathize and realize what we've been hiding. We can leave it behind, in the back yard, in a hole, left for the dog to dig up some day. Really our secrets won't always stay. So let lose and forget it, for life goes on. Try to enjoy it. And listen to these songs:
remember, life goes on. Sometimes (if not all the time), you've got to lose love if you want to find love.
Keep on keepin' on. Never stop loving and most importantly: never stop living.
Take care.
A long time ago we used to be friends.
We used to be more. Now we're just friends. But sometimes we're not. No one really knows what we are. We fight. We love. We hate. We argue. We get along. We don't. We try our hardest to make amends. But really, we can't be friends. Because that just blurs what it really means when it ends.
So we don't love. We forget how to feel. We never really know what is real. We know it's tough. But it's the deal.
We get over it. We start again. We find someone new to start a new end. We hope and we pray that this person will stay. Too the bitter end. We may lose another friend.
Here's my break-up playlist...
I haven't been there in a while but I know how heart-ache feels when you think you've found the "one" only to see that they aren't who you thought them to be. Or maybe you're young, just trying to have some fun. Only to get hurt when you finally realize you're being treated like dirt. Or perhaps you have a crush; which is a suitable name. Loving is the feeling and rejection is the pain. Let's all take a second and forget our harsh words; the "fuck you"'s and the "classless filth"'s that we've ever heard. Maybe you're the rejector or maybe the rejected. Either way, we all come together and help one another. We can sympathize and realize what we've been hiding. We can leave it behind, in the back yard, in a hole, left for the dog to dig up some day. Really our secrets won't always stay. So let lose and forget it, for life goes on. Try to enjoy it. And listen to these songs:
Keep on keepin' on. Never stop loving and most importantly: never stop living.
Take care.
xx. julie
Monday, October 3, 2011
Hey fellow readers!
I got completely smashed last night, yes I did! It was fun. I also found a guy who is quite nice, quite nice. I am currently drinking wine... Hoping to pass out so that I can finally even-out my sleeping pattern, not to say that I'm an alcoholic but, I love wine! So I'm quite sleepy and there's really no reason for this post, other than the fact that I really hope that everything in my life falls into a great place where I can get a few of the things I would like actually go right... Yes please! I also took aspirin and am starting to feel it so passing out may happen in 3...2...1... :) (but don't worry, I drink responsibly!) teeheehee!
Cheers to bringing back the old and out with the new!
PS... this was me on Saturday night... LOL!
love your life and stay safe.
I got completely smashed last night, yes I did! It was fun. I also found a guy who is quite nice, quite nice. I am currently drinking wine... Hoping to pass out so that I can finally even-out my sleeping pattern, not to say that I'm an alcoholic but, I love wine! So I'm quite sleepy and there's really no reason for this post, other than the fact that I really hope that everything in my life falls into a great place where I can get a few of the things I would like actually go right... Yes please! I also took aspirin and am starting to feel it so passing out may happen in 3...2...1... :) (but don't worry, I drink responsibly!) teeheehee!
Cheers to bringing back the old and out with the new!
xx. julie
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Harrow frandz,
So yesterday was just a turbine... First, I did a photo-shoot for a friend and got all my make-up and hair done, it was crazy! I looked so vintage, totally matched my personality :) Here's a little sneak-peek:
Next, I went on an awkward bus ride looking like this (in a different lace dress) holding a duffel bag of clothing, back pack, purse and guitar. Yes, people were staring! Twas awkz...
Anyways, then I progressed on and went to the Arctic Monkeys!! They were so rad, before the encore Alex threw his mic back and then swung his guitar onto the floor; so punk!!! haha. But it's weird because I used to listen to them in grade 7 and now I've seen them live and I just couldn't stop thinking that if I were still 13 this would be the best day of my life, now it's just like living my past dreams. Still, such a rad concert!! :)
Enjoy the sun!
So yesterday was just a turbine... First, I did a photo-shoot for a friend and got all my make-up and hair done, it was crazy! I looked so vintage, totally matched my personality :) Here's a little sneak-peek:
Anyways, then I progressed on and went to the Arctic Monkeys!! They were so rad, before the encore Alex threw his mic back and then swung his guitar onto the floor; so punk!!! haha. But it's weird because I used to listen to them in grade 7 and now I've seen them live and I just couldn't stop thinking that if I were still 13 this would be the best day of my life, now it's just like living my past dreams. Still, such a rad concert!! :)
xx. julie
Monday, September 26, 2011
Rainy-Day Playlist
Salutations dear ones,
Today I got on a random bus with no idea where I was going, it was pouring rain outside and I just wanted to leave all my thoughts behind and let them wash away with the rain. This bus ride was cleansing... It took me to Value Village where I ran around and tried on old vintage outfits from the Halloween department of the store. After my fun-filled shopping I left the store with one lace dress and twelve dollars less in my bank account. On the journey home I plugged in my iPod and sat in the middle section of the bus and gazed out the window while watching the rain drops race across the glass. I began to find myself drifting off into my past, my old iPod has such retro indie music and it's so easy to lose yourself in its awesome-ness. For that bus ride home life was so carefree- I was the younger Julie.
Here's a playlist, hope the rain washes away all those bad thoughts for you too.
Cleansing list:
enjoy.
xx. julie
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)