Hello friends,

Happiest of Hallow's Eve! :) My mom is currently on the phone to me while she's handing out candy... she's hilarious! She's taking a head count... I get an update every time new kids come to the door! I can hear kids in the background saying "trick or treat."
"Holy shit I think there's some more kids coming!" My mom says "There are some really big kids... Old, fat and everything."
I think that she has A.D.D. but I also think that I have it too... Cool.
I'm so tired. I had a three hour nap today.
Enjoy your sleeps!

nighty night. fall back into a sea of pillows. :)

xx. julie

Hello dear friends of the interwebz,

Most exciting of news today! I finally got a second job so I can begin repaying my parents for rent!! Overly excited rite meow! :-D
Now, I just need one more thing in life, yay!
I also gashed my knee open on the escalator today... To the bone. Ek. I'm living off of painkillers... :-(
Anyways, my best friend is coming here tomorrow morning at 8am! And I'm extremely excited beyond belief!! :-D
Yay for smiles.

night!

xx. julie

Hi readers,

So I have officially decided that I am the world's biggest procrastinator... Some people may try to argue that they are but they are all wrong, for it is I, Julie Kaufman, who is the world's biggest procrastinator. See, most procrastinators stop procrastinating when they finally need to do something critical. But I never stop. I keep procrastinating even when I have a huge life-changing situation to deal with. This is the worst thing ever... And guilt slowly trickles in. Worst... So here's a little tip: Don't be like me; don't procrastinate to the extremes!!! A little procrastination never hurt anyone but anything past a little is killer. Trust me.

Enjoy the moon.

xx. julie

High up there,

Lately my posts have been so optimistic and just about my life. I'm sorry. I do write in a journal but I still like to share my mind on here as well, my apologies. Sometimes I wonder how life works... I like to believe in karma; giving back and getting back. Yesterday I tried to help a man out by giving him a toonie and then two minutes later my phone rang and it was a job that I applied for and they asked me to come back for the next stage of interviews... Karma? I don't know, but it's got to mean something right? :)
There are so many other great things going on in my life right now, it seems. I'm just overly happy at the moment! Nothing but smiles. I love fall, I love falling. haha. Ugh. I'm so punny. Nawt. I need to stop contradicting myself haha...
Enjoy some upbeat tunes for the sunshine peering through my window today!

and then listen to Caught A Long Wind by Feist

Enjoy the sunshine today.

xx. julie

Hello dear friends,
So now I'm completely convinced that everything good in life is occurring to myself lately... :)
That's all!
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xx. julie

Hi there future, past and present lovers,

My name is Julie and I think that sometimes you can have a completely silent conversation with certain people without it feeling awkward at all. Just sitting... Thinking... Enjoying one-anothers company without saying a word; it's really just their presence that makes the moment perfect. Maybe I'm just blinded but I truly believe this.

Also, I need to end my love-hate-relationship with wine. Is it true that many of the 'greats' were either borderline insane, alcoholics, addicted to drugs or a combination? Right about now I feel like that's me. Well no. But you know what I mean? I'm just here and what am I here for..? I must have some type of prophecy to fulfill. Or am I just here? Do I even exist? Do you even exist? What if we're all just a figment of someone else's imagination. Just an illusion, a dream, not real. I don't know. Sometimes I get these absurd thoughts and I just feel the need to make them heard. Sometimes I wish I were like Leonardo Da Vinci. I need some sort of sign. Something to point me in the right direction... Does predetermination even exist? Or do we actually determine our own path. Are fait and destiny real or is that just a whole Shakespeare lie? I feel like I sound crazy but I don't know. It all makes sense in my mind and that's all that matters to me. I guess right now I'm the creator of my own "life"...

Wish me luck. And luck to you. I know you'll make it through if you just close your eyes and enjoy the ride!

xx. julie

this is all,

now let the rain wash you away...

xx. julie

Dear ghost of time,

Life is a schedule. Every morning I wake up at 8am, take my medications, clean up, come back to my room, make tea, go on my computer, listen to music, dream about the day, go out, maybe work, explore, come home, make dinner, eat, go on my computer, do something, get tired, go to sleep. But every morning isn't every morning... Some days I work, somedays I explore, somedays I run errands and somedays I want more. But to the days that I don't plan; they turn out to be the best because those are the days that are never put to the test. Those days that I wake up, not knowing what to do. I wake and I exit the door with no idea of what I'm going to explore. So here's for today and tomorrow. There's for yesterday and all the drunken sorrow. I'm off into the world without a care in my mind. And today with no intention good times I hope to find. Live your life freely and don't forget to write. Live your life to the fullest and happiness you will find!
Box-Type Love- Run Dan Run

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never let the past drag you down.

xx. julie

Norbert,
Lol. I'm drubnk.
drunk
drank
drinkhihi
ji
ohhhhh i'm presssing the shift button no t enter lolmao!!!!!i nust sneezed ;ol. I JUSR SNEEXED BIG! kk i need outta house. PLZ CUM GET MEH!

xx. julie

Are you there God? It's me, Julie...

Eff that. Hi there people. If anyone's out there?

The people upstairs are prancing around like there's an earthquake... Maybe, shut the f*ck up? Sorry. I'm slightly angry at how annoying they can get...
But really, I am all rainbows, puppies and cupcakes! It was a beautiful day :-)

Sorry, I just fell back into oblivion. But really, I always daydream. So, it's weird. Life likes to just throw all these little things your way and it's like whoa, okay, wow, yes, thank you, I love life. Yes, I feel that way. Oh my gosh. I'm so daft sometimes... I don't even know what I'm saying... Is this a normal thing? Why am I acting so strange?!

I remember when I was a little kid and my parents would take me to the toy store and say "Okay, you can pick out one toy."And I would sit in the aisles for hours looking at all the different possibilities. There were so many choices, how was I supposed to pick out just one! But as I got older I knew exactly what I wanted. I began to get more wise. I would look at the flyers and catalogs and circle specific toys that I dreamt of owning some day and when my parents would bring me back to that toy store I would march right over to a specific toy, pick it up and march back over to my parents with such a satisfied smile. But sometimes, those toys weren't exactly what they were made out to be... The pictures made them seem so much better than they really were. In the midst of my planning I was tricked. And it gave me an utter feeling of betrayal... Yes, at a young age I still managed to learn this. I guess what I'm trying to say is that sometimes we think we've found the sure thing and then we realize how far it is from what we really wanted. The best choices we make are the ones where we put the time and effort into finding, I loved those toys the most. Love. Love. Love.


Sweet dreams to all.

xx. julie

Bonjour amis,

Sometimes I feel like this is just a blank canvas and it's sitting in a room where no one ever dares to enter; it's forgotten and forbidden. No one ever reads my blog. So what's the point of writing it? Well, it's a cleansing feeling to get everything off of my chest and not have to worry about judgement. Even if people do judge, me who am I to know? If you can't fuck it then fuck 'em. Sometimes it's nice to be in solitary just like that little canvas in that forgotten and forbidden room.

So life is up, up, up!
I don't know, I'm just extremely optimistic about everything that's occurring in my life at the moment... I know that I've said this the past few times, but really! I can feel the change. :) Sometimes it's so surreal. But then again, that's life! Gosh, so many great things... I can't even begin. I just made a feather hair-piece that I am very excited about too!

Like my tattoo... Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication. And I'll say it everyday. As the birds fly through the skies moving forward in life as the seasons change and they fly south and back again. I've never been good with change but I hate it when it all stays the same and those birds bring me hope and reassurance that everything will pan out how it was meant to be.

Much love to you all, where ever you may be.
Always remember,
You are here -> <3 (my heart)

xx. julie

Hey there faithful readers?

Sorry, I guess we all lose each other somewhere along the way, right? I've lost a lot of things lately; sanity, love, health, friends, among a million other things. The neat thing about this though is that it's a fresh start; you may have lost a lot but now look at what you have to gain! And that makes all the difference in the world. Life is finally starting to look up... Despite what they say I just keep my head up high and walk away toward a new future. My eyes are open and I'm letting it all in!

never overlook a second chance.

xx. julie

Hello people whom I've lost touch with,

So we've moved on... We're starting to find our own separate ways. The little we talk in between here and there is almost nothing if you compare. To the days of the old, we'd see each other often. Everyday to be exact, at the same place and the same time. We'd laugh and we'd laugh. For we were young and we didn't know the time that we held. Now we're old, our eyes are glazed over and every moment in the past will only last as a memory. We still have our pictures that we took and our words that we wrote but everything else is a secret in a vault. Left for us to overlook.
I don't really talk to anyone that I graduated with... There may be 3 or 4 that occasionally comment on a Facebook post or tag me in an old photo. But it's never anything major. It never excites me when they send an e-mail my way. I left the past in the past and wished for it to stay. Drama is always an issue that I prefer to ignore so quite obviously I shut my door. On the people who aggravated me with all of the gossip that had nothing to do with me. It's okay now though. I've left it behind. I've moved on and cleared my mind!

and this is what I'm like...

Run free!

xx. julie

Hey all,

So maybe everything is going to be okay... It's all starting to fall into place; life is finally working itself all out. People are finally noticing me, I'm making friends, getting new jobs, going to concerts, having fun and everything else sun-shiney! I guess you could say that I'm extremely optimistic at this very moment in time. Enjoy some happy music on me! :-)

LOL!!!! Sorry, I had to!!!

okay. I can't do this right now... I'm too excited, sorry!

Enjoy your evening, unless if you're in another time zone and it's already day, in that case... Enjoy your day!

xx. julie

You've got to lose love if you want to find love

Hi past-lovers,

A long time ago we used to be friends.
We used to be more. Now we're just friends. But sometimes we're not. No one really knows what we are. We fight. We love. We hate. We argue. We get along. We don't. We try our hardest to make amends. But really, we can't be friends. Because that just blurs what it really means when it ends.
So we don't love. We forget how to feel. We never really know what is real. We know it's tough. But it's the deal.
We get over it. We start again. We find someone new to start a new end. We hope and we pray that this person will stay. Too the bitter end. We may lose another friend.

Here's my break-up playlist...
I haven't been there in a while but I know how heart-ache feels when you think you've found the "one" only to see that they aren't who you thought them to be. Or maybe you're young, just trying to have some fun. Only to get hurt when you finally realize you're being treated like dirt. Or perhaps you have a crush; which is a suitable name. Loving is the feeling and rejection is the pain. Let's all take a second and forget our harsh words; the "fuck you"'s and the "classless filth"'s that we've ever heard. Maybe you're the rejector or maybe the rejected. Either way, we all come together and help one another. We can sympathize and realize what we've been hiding. We can leave it behind, in the back yard, in a hole, left for the dog to dig up some day. Really our secrets won't always stay. So let lose and forget it, for life goes on. Try to enjoy it. And listen to these songs:

remember, life goes on. Sometimes (if not all the time), you've got to lose love if you want to find love.
Keep on keepin' on. Never stop loving and most importantly: never stop living.
Take care.

xx. julie

Hey fellow readers!

I got completely smashed last night, yes I did! It was fun. I also found a guy who is quite nice, quite nice. I am currently drinking wine... Hoping to pass out so that I can finally even-out my sleeping pattern, not to say that I'm an alcoholic but, I love wine! So I'm quite sleepy and there's really no reason for this post, other than the fact that I really hope that everything in my life falls into a great place where I can get a few of the things I would like actually go right... Yes please! I also took aspirin and am starting to feel it so passing out may happen in 3...2...1... :) (but don't worry, I drink responsibly!) teeheehee!

Cheers to bringing back the old and out with the new!

PS... this was me on Saturday night... LOL!

love your life and stay safe.

xx. julie